I wear my stretchy pants he hates. I eat frozen pizza for dinner. I lay awake all night in my lonely, big bed thinking, plotting, and listening for the next intruder. I cry when my sister emails me youtube videos about funny, happy people in love. I study my ginormous mirror, like she did, and contemplate about all the tlc I'm giving and missing.
I contemplate my wants, wishes, heartaches and things I know. One thing I know for sure. I want to be a good mother. I want to be a good wife. But I've decided I can't be.
Not without him.
When He is gone I miss him.
5 comments:
i am still here. i have lots of other things to do but refuse :)
that was a good one, made my heart hurt.
just so you know, i cried cheered and clapped while watching that video. i am jealous that i can't let go of those little things in life and live.
we all have struggles. he gives them to us to make us stronger and look at you getting stronger and stronger every day. i assume you made it through the night? way to go! you deserve a thumbs up.
your lover will be home soon, the good thing about jace is you know he probably missed you more because i know by the way he treats you just how much you mean to him.
love you lindz. you da baum. ha!!
Lindsay, where on earth is that man now? I like your stretchy pants and big mirrors and if I was ever to marry Chaz again civilly we would be dancing down the aisle. Hang in there you are a great moma nd wife especially tostay home alone again!!!
I'm glad to hear you miss Jace. That must mean you're not mad at him right? I sure wish I knew where he was, but I'll bet I could guess. I'm calling you later. I wish I could call right now but you've got to get kids to school right? Same with ol' Addie gal. I need to call her too. Don't give her a heads up, she won't answer the phone!
PS I do still read your blog, I've just gotten really bad about not giving comments, forgive me?
Private, heh? That's alright, glad I got an invite. I haven't read in a while and sure missed your writings. You are very talented. What a sweet blog to your hubby!
holy crap, you put that anonymous comment back up with my response and it made me sick to my stomach to read. i am not saying take it down i just am still in shock that someone so stupid would do that. ugh, i am mad all over again and could just slap that girl silly :)
how are your house guest doing? sorry about missing the lasagna dinner i about dropped to the floor at target. i was t i r e d. story of my life
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